my happy place.

this is my happy place.

up north. on the lake. this lake. 

we've been coming here since i was a baby... since my mom was a baby. this lake is in our blood. it's waters run deep through our soul. 

and now through my baby.

there is something about being up north that has always brought an immense amount of peace and clarity to me. being on the water, away from technology and all the responsibility of life in the city really allows your brain to disconnect. to rest. i always tell my husband that your brain is a muscle and just like marathon runners need to take a few days off here and there, big thinkers/IT nuts like him need to give their brain muscle a break too or risk injury... although sometimes his brain already seems injured... dishes go in the dishwasher damnit! and that right there is exactly why getting out of the city... getting not only mentally, but physically away from our problems and stresses allows us to regroup. to come back fresh eyed and bushy tailed and ready for the week's challenges.  



blue steel baby :)

the spirit of adventure is strong with this one. not even a week after she started walking and she was stomping the lawn like she owned the place... frankenstein style, always.

suns out, belly's out!

it's just the best.

the trail of broken hearts

wah.
this damn trail.
i love it. i hate it.
it's gorgeous and runs right past our house.
but it runs right past our house! my unobstructed view of wildlife and nature is now tainted with sweaty people and damn kids. ugh those damn kids.
just yesterday, two women had stopped and were looking at something when i realized it was two cute little deer! two cute little deer that i would have been able to clearly see a few months ago, but now... noooow i have to peer through this damn trail and its fence and the damn women.
arrrrr!!! first world problems!!! angry face.

 

i feel ya kid...  



rabbit rabbit.

i did it!

i actually remembered to say rabbit rabbit this morning! who knows if it'll bring me good luck this month... i mean... i did get to work and immediately texted my girlfriends that this was going to be the day that i was going to split my pants... but we'll see! i guess, if i make it through work and target with no rippage of the pants, i'm off to a good start.

speaking of ripping my pants... i need to lose weight. like lots of it. i just went through my phone to try to find old pictures of my sexy ass, but it's been so long... i'm not even sure cell phones had been invented the last time i was skinny. sigh.

maybe that's what all this good luck will be about this month. loosing a million pounds!

i bought a bunch of jars recently and started making jarred salads and overnight oats to bring to work, which really helps. what doesn't help is when you get busy and forget and then go to the gas station for a burrito bowl (no rice! yes chips... damn) and about 10 other treats. grrrr. but! it does really help to meal prep. it actually makes all the difference in the world. making sure to have meals prepped at the beginning of the work week, especially for meals eaten at work, takes all of the guess work out. all of the chances for bad choices and skipped meals no longer pose a threat to a healthy lifestyle.

plus... look at that beaut! she's filled with tzatziki, tomates, red onion, gyro meat (gyro meat! not really all that healthy, but TJs sells it!), and loads of lettuce. mmmm... she's a regular, ol', gyro salad in a jar! so good. probably not the healthiest salad i could make, but it's better than Noodles or Pasta Zola or a juicy burger or a reuben or... ok done.

i'm really hoping to write more about my progress with weight loss. i'm really hoping to have some progress with weight loss. after my last miscarriage, my eyes were really opened to my lifestyle choices and how that is probably a huge factor in everything that happened. loosing weight and living healthy isn't just for me anymore. it's for my baby and all the babies i want to have. it's for my future and for my today and rabbit rabbit! help me lose all of this weight!