endless fall.

this, my friends, this has been one of the best Minnesota falls on record. ever. like forever ever.
it's now october 27th and it's raining! it's so warm out that it's raining! and it's going to be in the 60s this weekend! 66 on monday! so much excitement! to take advantage of this, my parents, Kevan, Lu, and i went on a little jaunt around the countryside to a few pumpkin patches this past weekend. it was so much fun to just jump in the car with an idea of where we might want to go and then follow the wind. when the first place that we stopped at wasn't exactly what we were looking for, on to the next! we ended up at this farm/vineyard, did a little wine tasting, bought some stuff, took some pictures, and i got bit by a horse! a horse i tells ya! now… the photo evidence:

my little family.

they're my favorite.

one week.

the moment that i've been dreading for the past 11 weeks is upon us. in one week from today, i will be waking up and leaving my daughter to go back to work. ugh. i think i might just call in sick… for the next 18 years. honestly. the thought of missing something, of not being here when she's sad, not hearing her little, bitty voice and seeing that dimpled smile. i mean…

i just can't handle her! she's got the spunkiest little personality with the sweetest little smile (and a dimple ta boot!). she talks all the time and thinks that momma and daddy are the funniest people around, aside from her grandpa Dolan of course. she's my best girl and it might literally kill me to leave her. i'm just going to keep telling myself that it's only until january. maybe that'll make it easier. maybe.

right now i'm...

trying to cherish these last 7 days with my baby before going back to work. these have been the 3 most life changing months of my life and to think that i won't be spending every moment of the day with my little wiggle worm is gut wrenching… which is probably why we haven't 100% nailed down child care… which is probably why my anxiety is through the roof… which is probably why i have no patience for my husband. damn. sorry Kevan!

watching Harry Potter weekend on acbFamily. hot damn i love this series. did you know that my little Lu was born on JK Rowling's 50th birthday? it was fate, i believe.

thinking i might take a nap.

wondering where Winnie's brush is and hoping i didn't leave it at the cabin. i really feel like i've used it since we got back, but i can't find it anywhere. wah.

hoping that Lu doesn't nap too late. her morning nap was postponed a bit and i know you're not supposed to wake a sleeping baby, but sometimes i'm tempted to just to keep her on a schedule. boo.

just finding out that we're having people over for dinner. i think we should grill. it's gorgeous out… especially for october 18th… and i'd like to take advantage of it. or maybe do german- spaetzle, red cabbage, beer braised brats. decisions decisions.

really sad that i watched the whole Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries on netflix. if you haven't watched it… run to your couch, put up your feet, and get ready to binge.

going to go take a nap. opposed to my previous statement… hopefully Lu naps for at least 30 more minutes. prayer hands emoji.